It's ironic how what I wish to say to you appears in your own words.

Assumptions has cost us alot. Yet there is always more. I keep quiet only because I value peace, for I know for sure what I say will be tinted with anger and biasedness. I only want to let go, yet everytime I supress everything something else comes up once more.

With so many different expectations, sometimes the line between the expectations from God and expectations from others is blurred. I'm especially prone to this, I think. I'm still slowly discovering what is it that the Lord wants me to strive to be, and I find that in many situations, people demand different things, expect various things which I cannot live up to. When this happenes, I'm hard on myself, because at times I question if the Lord is telling me something. In this situation though, I have, with the help of friends and after months of worrying, realized that this is not it. It's complex, but I pray that piece by piece I'll see what the Lord is saying to me. But I now know that I cannot live up to those expectations, because they are not for me. I shall only accept that from Him who knows me best:)

Thanks for the mooncakes, cell:) I thank God for providing me with more than a cell group, but a family of friends I can trust. Thank you:)